It's nearly 2:30 am..  I lost my first blog, so I guess that means I have to try again...Okay...

I've been writing a lot about my Mom, & I hope I haven't bored you, but it's the one thing that's been on my mind.  I miss her so much, I can't tell you how...

I've tried the happy thoughts, they work okay sometimes, but today I "ached" to hear her voice & just pick up the phone to call her....

I knew it would be this way...I literally grieved before she passed, I knew it would be a big loss to me.  I'm sorry if I carry on, but it's so inside of my heart.  I'm sorry...

I've even called one of those crisis lines at 3 in the morning just to talk to someone. 

People always say, "No one wants to hear your problems"...Is that right???

Again, I apologize.  One day, I'll be over this & you'll see what a bright person I am....I'm trying each day to make it better for everyone.

Losing someone we love so very much is the hardest thing to do.  Yes, I know there are worse things in life to deal with, but for me, losing Mom, was the biggest loss.....& I wonder when I'll be myself again...

Thank you for listening, by dear ones.   Thank you so much....