Letting Go
By Kim DuBois
Published on 02/14/2010
“I don’t care anymore. I am so sick of all this bullshit. I am tired of trying. Tired of failing. Tired of nothing ever working out for me. I really don’t care anymore.

“I don’t care anymore.
I am so sick of all this bullshit. I am tired of trying. Tired of failing. Tired of nothing ever working out for me. I really don’t give a shit anymore.
Everyday it’s always the same.   I am so tired of being let down and disappointed by everyone.   It’s always a constant struggle. We are always fighting, always butting heads, and no matter what I do, nothing ever changes.   Every day I hope things will be different.  I hope people will change and things will finally be the way I want them to be. But it never happens. No one ever changes.
I try so hard... I do everything I can think of. I do everything  I’m supposed to do,  but no matter what, no matter how hard I try it doesn’t matter. Nothing ever changes.   Always the same.
I am so tired of not being able to fix my life – I just want  to quit. Give up. Whatever.  I’ll just be alone, no more disappointments that way.  I am sick of relying on people who only let me down and don’t come through!  No can ever let me down again if there’s no one there.   No one can ever hurt me again or deny me anything if I do it first - I hate them all! Why can’t people just be what I need them to be!
I am so tired of feeling like this. So tired of hurting. So tired of crying. 
I don’t care anymore. I just don’t care. I give up. I quit. You win, and I’m letting all this go…”
And here, it can finally begin. 
Often times it’s when you feel you’ve got nothing left to lose that you are really on the verge of allowing everything you want. In this place of giving in and release, you can finally let go.   Let go your worry, your doubts and fears, frustrations,  expectations  and preconceived ideas of how things should look or how people should be… Let it all go. By letting go, you stop pushing against everything in your life. You stop trying to force change and instead you allow life to be what it is.  By letting go and giving in you can break free from the bonds, the burdens and the resistance that is literally suffocating you, and finally begin to breath once again.
Just Let Go. Flow with the river. Let go and allow yourself to be free.
As always it is my goal to uplife, inspire and help others to heal their lives.  Thank you for allowing me to be part of that with you.  - Kim